I have just embarked on a 9 month journey in to Anusara Yoga by spending the weekend with my teacher. It was really cool! My yoga practice has been a sort of middle space between my workaholic self and my lazy bones self. It's been a way to work towards bettering the vessel. It's my goal to use this practice in the middle space and to work slowly at expanding that space to embody more of who and what I am aside from what I do for a living and to bring new life into an old vessel.
  Over the weekend I have recognized how fearful I am of living to my potential. It's so strange how I can be looking at a threshold point-blank knowing that crossing It will only bring  about good, yet I will shy away or will have negative thoughts about the potential out-come in an attemt to divert myself from exploring the possibilities. 
   I am realizing how fear has controlled almost all of my actions for most of my adult life. Even the decisions that seemed fearless and bold or brave have almost been more hap hazard and carelessly dangerous. It's  almost as if closing one eye to the things which I feared allowed me to move through them. 
    Fear clutters the mental space when unrecognized. Making momentary functions, actions and thoughts less enjoyable. You could say that the desire for living is shrowded when fear dominates the thought process, manifesting itself in many forms of reactive emotions like anger,jelousy, and many others.